Lil' packages of life ^^

The Wound That Never Got Healed

2011-06-10T22:58:00.004+08:00

I still think of you day in and day out... I still wake up at night with a cold sweat on my skin from a dream about you... I still get lost in my thoughts of you.. I still look around when someone calls your name... I still feel the tears in my eyes when mail comes for you... I still turn down all the lights at night and cry for you.. Only for you..

If only I could hear your voice one more time... Guiding me through... My shining light.. Maybe that would stop my tears... Maybe if I could just see your face.. My heart would stop its grieving.. Maybe if I could just let you know I love you..one more time... That would keep my mind at ease.. Maybe if.. I had told you one more time how much you mean to me.. How much I look up to you.. How scared I am going to be without you... You would haven't had left... maybe if...

So you're gone and I know you had me promise I wouldn't cry, and I'm sorry... I know you're never coming back and I may never see you again, and well, it hurts... It hurts beyond imagination... And I thought I could handle it, but I can't. I want to reach out and touch you -- kiss you -- but you're not there... I would have given anything to tell you, 'I love you' one last time... But it wouldn't have changed anything... I despise fate.

Self Reflect

2011-05-29T22:29:00.005+08:00

It was as if the face in the mirror belonged to a stranger, while the person who ought to appear remained in hiding.

Sometimes it seems like we’re all living in some kind of prison. And the crime is how much we hate ourselves. It’s good to get really dressed up once in a while and admit the truth: that when you really look closely, people are so strange and so complicated that they’re actually…beautiful. Possibly even me.

But then I thought maybe it’s not that I’m more beautiful today. Maybe I was just as beautiful yesterday, only I lacked the self-esteem to recognize it.

The Battle of Life

2010-05-20T14:52:00.001+08:00

A wise man once said – 'You can have anything in life if you're willing to sacrifice everything else for it.' What he meant is nothing comes without a price... So before you go into battle, you better decide how much you're willing to lose... Too often going after what feels good means letting go of what you know is right... And letting someone in means abandoning the walls you've spent a lifetime building... Of course the toughest sacrifices are the ones we don't see coming... When we don't have time to come up with a strategy to pick sides….or to measure the potential loss... When that happens, when the battle chooses us, and not the other way around, that's when the sacrifice can turn out to be more than we can bear...

Depressed

2010-04-13T01:25:00.005+08:00

There is a voice, that has no name... It comes with evening or behind the rain... I have no time now, to stop and explain, I just keep movin, cause it helps to ease the pain... The night has music that calls to me, across the canyons of an endless sea... I seek the shadows, of yesterday... Today can't hold me, so I must be on my way... Speak to me softly but tell me no lies... I see tomorrow shining in your eyes... I have no time now to stop and explain, I just keep movin cause it helps to ease the pain...

Am I Truly Ready To Let That Dream Go Now?

2010-04-08T12:16:00.005+08:00

When we embrace what lies within, our potential knows no limit... The future is filled with promise.... The present, rife with expectation... But when we deny our instinct, and struggle against our deepest urges... Uncertainty begins... Where does this path lead? When will the changes end? Is this transformation a gift... or a curse? And for those that fear what lies ahead... The most important question of all... Can we ever change what we really are?

The rest of your life is a long time and whether you know it or not it's being shaped right now... You can choose to blame your circumstances on fate or bad luck or bad choices or you can fight back... Things aren't always going to be fair in the real world, that's just the way it is but for the most part you get what you give... Someone once asked me this - What's worse not getting everything you wished for or getting it but finding out it's not enough? The rest of your life is being shaped right now with the dreams you chase, the choices you make and the person you decide to be... The rest of your life is a long time and the rest of your life starts right now...

It's said that the saddest thing a man will ever face is what might have been... but what if the man who's faced with what was... or what may never be... or what can no longer be... choosing the right path is never easy, it's a decision we make with only our hearts to guide us... but sometimes we find our way to something better... sometimes we fight through the regret and remorse of our mistakes, our malice and our jealousy, and the shame we feel for not being the people we were meant to be... and that's when we find our way to something better... or when something better finds its way to us.

Defying Gravity

2010-04-05T11:54:00.000+08:00

Something has changed within me

Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes: and leap!

It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I am defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!

I'm through accepting limits
''cause someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I'll never know!
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well, if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost!

I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!

I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you won't bring me down!
bring me down!
ohh ohhh ohhhh!

Goodbyes?

2010-04-02T09:30:00.001+08:00

And so it comes just as it is, a day no longer here... And through my trembling fingertips, the memories of the year... I try not to wave farewell to all our dreams, I will forget you never, I wonder if the crazy times will stay with you forever... But as I cry in pain of losing you, my dear and such great friend, I will not close the book and say farewell, this is the end... For good-byes create swift hellos and days from now you'll see, that though it hurts to say good-bye, your friend will always be...

Does this ring a bell? LOL...

2010-03-31T13:07:00.002+08:00

True Colours

2010-03-19T11:27:00.001+08:00

You with the sad eyes
Don't be discouraged
Oh I realise
It's hard to take courage
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it all
And darkness still inside you
Make you feel so small

But I see your true colors
Shinin' through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a rainbow.

Show me a smile then,
Don't be unhappy,
Can't remember when I last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know I'll be there

And I see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors,
True colors, are beautiful,
Like a rainbow

Ah ah ah

If this world makes you crazy
You've taken all you can bear
You call me up (call me up)
Because you know I'll be there

And I'll see your true colors
Shining through ( I see them shining through)
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you (that's why I love you)
So don't be afraid (afraid) to let them show
Your true colors, true colors
I see your true colors are shining through (yeah)
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid (afraid) to let them show
Your true colors
True colors, true colors
Are beautiful, Like a rainbow

Thank you

2010-03-16T17:58:00.000+08:00

When we first talked to each other
I knew we would always be friends.
Our friendship has kept on growing
And I'll be here for you to the end.

You listen when I have a problem
And help dry the tears from my face.
You take away my sorrow
And put happiness in its place.

We can't forget the fun we've had
Laughing 'til our faces turn blue.
Talking of things only we find funny
People think we're insane-If they only knew!

I guess this is my way of saying thanks
For catching me when I fall.
Thanks once again for being such a good friend
And being here with me through it all.

A.L.O.N.E

2010-03-11T23:17:00.001+08:00

Do you ever get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody? You don't want to smile and you don't want to fake being happy... But at the same time you don't know exactly what's wrong either... There isn't a way to explain it to someone who doesn't already understand... If you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone... People have stopped being comforting and being along never was... At least when you're alone no one will constantly ask you what is wrong and there isn't anyone who won't take 'I don't know' for an answer... You feel the way you do just because... You hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait...

Life is all about ASS...

2010-03-10T16:40:00.004+08:00

When I was little I had this idea that life could be perfect... That if you were careful enough, you'd never make a mistake, never be lonely, never be misunderstood, never be frightened, but it doesn't work that way... Life is big and messy, and you just have to climb in it with your boots on and hope for the best...

It's hard to accept, but you can't change the past... You can't go back and manipulate things to the way you wanted them to happen... Because life would then be meaningless and boring and just not worth living... But you can change the future and that's a beautiful thing about life... Yes, you will make mistakes... And yes, you will have bad days - but as long as you let the past go, you'll have such a gorgeous and bright future ahead of you. Knowing that things were meant to happen... Knowing that each day you will learn something so that you keep growing to be a better person...

By living each day to its absolute fullest you not only sleep better at night but you are one step closer to your dreams... Take chances. tell the truth. date someone totally wrong for you. say no. spend all your cash. fall in love. get to know someone random. be random. say i love you. sing out loud. laugh at a stupid joke. cry. get revenge. apologize. tell someone how much they mean to you. tell a jerk what you feel. let someone know what they're missing. stalk someone. blackmail. laugh til your stomach hurts. live life... There is not a shred of evidence to support the theory that life is meant to be serious...

In short, life is all about ass; you're either covering it, laughing it off, kicking it, kissing it, busting it, or behaving like 1

Goodbye?

2010-03-09T18:11:00.000+08:00

Nothing is forever, and the time comes when we must say goodbye to the world we know. Goodbye to everything we had taken for granted. Goodbye to those we thought would never abandon us. And when these changes finally do occur, when the familiar has departed and the unfamiliar has taken its place, all any of us can really do is to say hello and welcome.

Lesson Of The Day

2010-03-04T23:44:00.003+08:00

I guess what I learned from all that is that real friends, the truest of friends, are really those who know all about me and like me anyway... They are the people who no matter how long it has been since I have talked to them or seen them, I can call them no matter the time of day, and just pick up where we left off... Like no time has ever passed since our last conversation... People like that are the ones that you feel comfortable with, otherwise you wouldn't be able to do it... They're the people who are really there, no matter what...

B.A.K.I.N.G

2010-03-02T23:05:00.009+08:00

Nyonya pineapple tarts... ( Tastes as good as it looks,LOL )

Chocolate cupcakes... ( The most sinful cupcakes ever!! )

Xmas cookies!!! ( I painstakingly cut them out one by one =S )

New kid on the block - blueberry muffins... Light and nice =D

Rolled pinapple tarts...

Banana cupcakes ( This is what I do when I have excess bananas at home,LOL )

These are all contributing factors to my expanding waistline... Now, can anybody help me out with this dillema? =S

EXPECTATIONS

2010-02-24T17:11:00.001+08:00

Expectations...

Sometimes they bring us moments we don't anticipate...

The ones that make you think and stop and take inventory...

And give you a better understanding of where you're at and where you're headed...

And ultimately...

Create new expectations.

To love or not?

2010-02-23T18:22:00.003+08:00

To love is to suffer...

To avoid suffering one must not love...

But then one suffers from not loving...

Therefore to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer...

To suffer is to suffer...

To be happy is to love...

To be happy then is to suffer...

But suffering makes one unhappy...

Therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness...

~Woody Allen~

To Be Young Again

2010-02-18T12:43:00.003+08:00

I want to be a kid again. I want to go back to the time when:

- Decisions were made by going "lat tali lat tali tam pom."
- Mistakes were corrected by simply exclaiming, "do over!"
- "Race issue" meant arguing about who ran the fastest...
- Money issues were handled by whoever was the banker in "Monopoly."
- Catching the dragonflies could happily occupy an entire evening...
- It wasn't odd to have two or three "best" friends...
- Being old, referred to anyone over 20...
- It was magic when dad would "remove" his thumb...
- Scrapes and bruises were kissed and made better...
- It was a big deal to finally be tall enough to ride the "big people" rides at the amusement park..
- Spinning around, getting dizzy and falling down was cause for giggles...
- The worst embarrassment was being picked last for a team...
- War was a card game...
- Water balloons were the ultimate weapon...
- Ice cream was considered a basic food group...
- Ang pows are received without the persistant nagging of when's your turn...

If you can remember most or all of these, then you have really LIVED!!!!

Friends

2010-01-30T00:18:00.000+08:00

Friends are like television... Some are like PBS and always asking for money, others are like the news with sad tales to tell every day, some are like that one station with the foreign language, you don't understand a word of it but you watch and listen anyway; and then there are the ones like commercials: always changing, ever so annoying and only seem to be there when you're bored, but every once in a while you meet someone who's like a really good movie of the week or a tv show you hardly ever get to see anymore because you're so busy... My point is: hold on to the friends that you care about and since we don't have a remote control to mute someone or just change the channel, pick your friends carefully...

F.O.C.U.S

2010-01-19T19:04:00.005+08:00

From the backstabbing co-worker to the meddling stalker, you are in charge of how you react to the people and events in your life... You can either give negativity power over your life or you can choose happiness instead... Take control and choose to focus what is important in you life... Those who cannot love fully often become destroyers of life...

It takes courage to push yourself to places that you have never been before... To test your limits... To break through barriers... And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom

In short, when you make a world tolerable to yourself... You make a world tolerable for others...

New Year Resolutions?

2009-12-30T19:33:00.004+08:00

I shall not undermine my own's worth by comparing myself with others... It is because we are all different that each of us is special...

I shall not set my goals by what others deem important... Only I know what is good for me, myself and I...

I shall not take for granted the things closest to my heart... I shall cherish them as I would my life, for without them life is meaningless...

I shall not let life slip through my fingers by living in the past or for the future... By living life one day at a time, I shall live all the days of my life...

I shall not give up when I still have something to give... Nothing is over until the moment I stop...

I shall not be afraid to admit that I am less than perfect... It is this fragile thread that bonds us to each other...

I shall not be afraid to encounter risks... It is by taking chances that we learn how to be brave...

I shall not shut love out of my life by saying it is impossible to find... The quickest way to receive love is to give love... The best way to keep love is to give it wings... The fastest way to lose love is to hold it too tightly...

I shall not race through life too fast... Life is a journey to be savoured each step of the way...

Have a great New Year everybody!! Cheers =D

Am I just there yet?

2009-12-23T06:24:00.001+08:00

I believe life is constantly testing us for our level of commitment, and life's greatest rewards are reserved for those who demonstrate a never-ending commitment to act until they achieve... This level of resolve can move mountains, but it must be constant and consistent... As simplistic as this may sound, it is still the common denominator separating those who live their dreams from those who live in regret...

Lost and Found?

2009-12-20T01:24:00.003+08:00

Have ... have any of you ... lost that one friend ... that person who you thought will ALWAYS be there... Who said they would always be there, but, then, they got tired of you, or fed up with you, or just stopped caring about you, and they just left? After promising you they would never leave they break that promise?

You have other friends, people who are your best friends, but that person just meant something to you, something really special, and while those other best friends of yours are people who you would die for in a minute, and they are still there and you know they always will be, you just feel... empty because they take that specialness away because they just don't care anymore...

They accuse their leaving of being your fault... They say it's because you stopped caring... Because you pushed them away farther than they could take... Because you just weren't good enough... Because you just didn't try hard enough... They say that if you cared, that if you didn't push them away, that if you were good enough, that if you tried harder, then they would still be there...

But, what I don't understand is why they can't understand that the only reason I push someone away was because I loved them so much, and that they meant so much to me, and that I got scared... I was frightened that they would take that love away... And I was right... They did...

Why can't they understand? And I'm no stranger to learning the hard way and the day our friendship died it all became so clear that in life, we have to learn to keep the memories... And lose the people who helped us make them...

Patience

2009-11-24T23:03:00.000+08:00

They always say, patience is a virtue...
Do people ever question whether it is indeed one?

What if tomorrow never comes?
What is it that you want,
but feels you can’t,
until later?

There are some things that definitely can’t wait...
Like loving your loved ones, and letting them know...

Yet strangely, some things can’t be rushed...

Otherwise, it takes another turn and heads another way,
such that it isn’t the same as it would have been in the first place...
Then having it just before the last today,
would not have meant so much,
as half of what it would have been, if it wasn’t rushed...

Do the people who have left have regrets?
Or do they leave in peace for the better world?
Then only the ones left in this world have them….

Where does that leave me?

2009-11-21T00:21:00.001+08:00

Education has made me snobbish,
The good things in life has made me unappreciative;
The choices i have make me picky;
And I am selective.

The need to be liked has made me unnatural,
The downfalls in life has made me afraid,
The fear in me makes me less than courageous,
And in my strive to achieve moderation,
I swing from extreme to extreme.

So, where does that leave me?

Strangers

2009-11-08T23:53:00.001+08:00

You ever look at a picture of yourself and see a stranger in the background? It makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you, how many moments of other peoples lives have we been in, we're we a part of someone's life when their dreams came true, or were we there when their dreams died... Did we keep trying to get in, as if we were somehow destined to be there, or did the shot take us by surprise... Just think, you could be a big part of someone else's life, and not even know it...

Childhood

2009-11-06T20:11:00.005+08:00

I've finally realised why I keep missing home... Yeah, the title of PBSM (Pelajar Balik Setiap Minggu) president does come with a reason... Everytime I finally go back to my old hometown, I find it wasn't the old home I missed but my childhood... Childhood is the most beautiful of all life's seasons... The older I grow the more earnestly I feel that the few joys of childhood are the best that life has to give... And I'm glad that I had a wonderful childhood..

Make a wish

2009-11-03T23:58:00.002+08:00

Make a wish and place it in your heart... Anything you want, everything you want... Do you have it? Good... Now believe it can come true... You never know where the next miracle is gonna come from, the next smile, the next wish come true... But if you believe that it's right around the corner, and you open your heart and mind to the possibility of it, to the certainty of it... You just might get the thing you're wishing for... The world is full of magic... You just have to believe in it... So make your wish... Do you have it? Good... Now believe in it... With all your heart...

Just sing with all your heart =)

2009-10-27T14:49:00.002+08:00

Looking back on what I said all those years ago, all the hopes and dreams I had, I've come to the conclusion that if having things turn out the way you wanted them to is a measure of a successful life, then some would say I'm a failure... The important thing is not to be bitter over life's disappointments... Learn to let go of the past, and recognize that every day won't be sunny... And when you find yourself lost in the darkness of despair remember, it's only in the black of night that you see the stars, and those stars lead you back home...

It is said that the saddest thing a man will ever face is what might have been... But what if the man who's faced with what was... or what may never be... or what can no longer be... Choosing the right path is never easy, it's a decision we make with only our hearts to guide us... But sometimes we find our way to something better... Sometimes we fight through the regret and remorse of our mistakes, our malice and our jealousy, and the shame we feel for not being the people we were meant to be... And that's when we find our way to something better... or when something better finds its way to us...

Every song has a CODA, a final movement... Whether it fades out or crashes away... Every song ends... Is that any reason not to enjoy the music? The truth is, there is nothing to be afraid of... It's just life...

SMILE =)

2009-10-24T14:00:00.008+08:00

You're better then the best
I'm lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow, that's right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me,
Lets me know that it's ok, yeah it's ok
And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Even when you're gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Don't know how I lived without you
Cuz everytime that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

What Feeds You?

2009-10-15T23:32:00.004+08:00

The door closes on another semester and soon another year... Time to go inside... Listen... What is calling you at this time in your life? What are you hungry for?

Do you long for a simpler life with deeper connections, more meaningful work to express your values or, a loving relationship? Whatever you seek outside of yourself, first, find it within yourself... If you want deeper connections, connect deeply with yourself... If you desire more meaningful work clarify what your values are... If you want a loving relationship then show yourself how you want to be loved...

When you "feed" yourself, and only you know what will nourish you, you will no longer need to look outside of yourself for things to fill you up... You will never, ever go hungry again...

Imagine life is a banquet that you have been invited to... All of the "food" has been prepared especially for you. It's up to you to decide what you want and need... This means that you will have to choose and say "No" to some things to make room for the things you want to say "Yes" to...

When we partake of "food" that nourishes our souls we become whole... We can afford to be in the world and be ourselves... When we are "full" we naturally want to find ways to "feed" others...

There is a banquet prepared just for you... I wish you a big plate piled high with all that is nourishing to you... And, after you have been completely "fed", a soft pillow for your head and sweet, sweet dreams =)

Are you willing...

2009-09-03T11:13:00.003+08:00

Are you willing...

· to stoop down and consider the needs and desires of little children;

· to remember the weakness and loneliness of people growing old;

· to stop asking how much your friends love you, and ask yourself whether you love them enough;

· to bear in mind the things that other people have to bear in their hearts;

· to try to understand what those who live in the same home with you really want, without waiting for them to tell you;

· to trim your lamp so that it will give more light and less smoke, and to carry it in front so that your shadow will fall behind you;

· to make a grave for your ugly thoughts, and a garden for your kindly feelings, with the gate open?

Are you willing to do these things, even for a day?

Growing up

2009-08-16T10:00:00.003+08:00

After careful consideration and many sleepless nights, here’s what I've decided... There's no such thing as a grown-up... We move on, we move out, we move away from our families and form our own... But the basic insecurities, the basic fears and all those old wounds just grow up with us... And just when we think life and circumstances have forced us truly to become an adult, your mother says something like that... Or worse, something like that... We get bigger, we get taller, we get older... But, for the most part, we're still a bunch of kids, running around the playground, trying desperately to fit in...

We grow bigger and taller, but we never actually grow up... I've heard that it's possible to grow up, I've just never met anyone who's actually done it... Without parents to defy, we break the rules we make for ourselves... We throw tantrums when things don't go our way... We whisper secrets with our best friends in the dark... We look for comfort where we can find it... And we hope; against all logic, against all experience... Like children, we never give up hope...

Live In The Moment

2009-07-31T12:08:00.003+08:00

If you're feeling frightened about what comes next, don't be... Embrace the uncertainty... Allow it to lead you places... Be brave as it challenges you to exercise both your heart and your mind as you create your own path towards happiness, don't waste time with regret... Spin wildly into your next action... Enjoy the present, each moment, as it comes; because you'll never get another one quite like it... And if you should ever look up and find yourself lost, simply take a breath and start over... Retrace your steps and go back to the purest place in your heart... where your hope lives... You'll find your way again...

Life

2009-07-22T20:07:00.001+08:00

Life isn't about keeping score... It's not about how many people call you, and it's not about who you've dated, are dating, or haven't dated at all... it isn't about who you kissed, what sport you play, or which guy or girl likes you... Its not about your shoes or your hair or the color of your skin or where you live or go to school... In fact, its not about grades, money, clothes, or colleges that accept you or not... Life isn't about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and its not about how accepted or unaccepted you are... Life just isn't about that... But life is about who you love. and who you hurt... It's about how you feel about yourself... It's about trust, happiness, and compassion... It's about sticking up for your friends and replacing inner hate with love one else's in a way that could never have been achieved otherwise...

This was from a Nike ad... How true indeed!! =)

HAPPY

2009-07-14T19:41:00.004+08:00

Did you ever meet someone and have them totally change your life? That every thought you ever had about life and yourself was changed… The way you look at life and people and even breathe... It's like all that time you were hiding inside yourself till that person came into your life and suddenly everything was different... But even though they changed the way you looked and felt about things, they made you perhaps a little more cynical and untrusting of the world... And somehow it has to be learned that it's possible to trust again... And not everyone is going to stare you in the face and lie to you... But it's learning that, that's the hard part... It's not going to happen in a day, a week, or a month, but pretty soon you'll begin to realize that not everyone is going to hurt you... And that's when you're happy... And guess what?? I'm HAPPY =)

D.A.R.E

2009-07-10T21:56:00.002+08:00

Dare to look foolish... The real fools are those who never attempt anything...
Dare to make mistakes... They are the best teachers you will ever know...
Dare to take action... There's a risk you may fail... Yet if you take no action failure is a certainty...
Dare to be fully alive...
Dare to speak your mind...
Dare to enjoy the beauty of the world...
Dare to make a difference...
Dare to love...
Dare to be the person you know you can be...
Dare to expect the best, with your words and actions... You'll usually get it...
Dare to do what is right rather than what is convenient or expedient... It will truly make a difference in the way you see yourself, and the way others see you...
You're here, with this magnificent day available to you... Dare to make it the best you can...

If Today Was Your Last Day

2009-06-30T12:06:00.004+08:00

My best friend gave me the best advice
He said each day's a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride

If today was your last day
And tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
If today was your last day

Against the grain should be a way of life
What's worth the prize is always worth the fight
Every second counts 'cause there's no second try
So live like you'll never live it twice
Don't take the free ride in your own life

If today was your last day
And tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
Would you call old friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories
Would you forgive your enemies?
Would you find that one you're dreamin' of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you finally fall in love
If today was your last day

If today was your last day
Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart?
You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars
Regardless of who you are
So do whatever it takes
'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this life
Let nothin' stand in your way
Cause the hands of time are never on your side

If today was your last day
And tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
Would you call old friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories
Would you forgive your enemies?
Would you find that one you're dreamin' of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you finally fall in love
If today was your last day

Someone whom I used to call Fatty

2009-06-25T10:08:00.008+08:00

To the outside world we all grow old... But not to brothers and sisters... We know each other as we always were... We know each other's hearts... We share private family jokes... We remember family feuds and secrets, family griefs and joys... We live outside the touch of time...

To my one and only brother: A decision is made with the brain... A commitment is made with the heart... Therefore, a commitment is much deeper and more binding than a decision... You have two hands... One to help yourself, the second to help others... So, just promise me that you'll work your ass off to become the best damn doctor the world has ever seen...

P/S At the same time, please remember to pause for a moment to smell the flowers and enjoy every moment there in KK alright,my dear geeky brother... All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy,LOL... I'll miss the times we squander over the the smallest matter or having to share my room with you...haha... All the best to you =)

Change

2009-06-17T06:47:00.003+08:00

The more things change, the more they stay the same... I'm not sure who the first person was who said that... Probably Shakespeare... Or maybe Sting... But at the moment, it's the sentence that best explains my tragic flaw: my inability to change... I don't think I'm alone in this... The more I get to know other people, the more I realize it's kind of everyone's flaw... Staying exactly the same for as long as possible, standing perfectly still... It feels safer somehow... And if you are suffering, at least the pain is familiar... Because if you took that leap of faith, went outside the box, did something unexpected... Who knows what other pain might be out there, waiting for you... Chances are it could be even worse... So you maintain the status quo... Choose the road already traveled and it doesn't seem that bad... Not as far as flaws go... You're not a drug addict... You're not killing anyone... Except maybe yourself a little... When we finally do change, I don't think it happens like an earthquake or an explosion, where all of a sudden we're like this different person... I think it's smaller than that... The kind of thing most people wouldn't even notice unless they looked at us really close... Which, thank God, they never do... But you notice it... Inside you that change feels like a world of difference... And you hope this is it... This is the person you get to be forever... That you'll never have to change again...

Life is good....

2009-06-08T09:26:00.004+08:00

Life changes... You get it all lined up just the way you like it and then something beyond your control comes along and bumps you off center... How nice it would be if you could get everything just the way you want it and say, 'Okay, now, stay.' But nothing stays the same... You grow up, make friends, lots friends, go to college, lose track of people, meet new ones, and sometimes you ask yourself why...

But all I can tell you is the every single experience you go through like this changed you in some way... Every new person who comes into your life changes you... Every moral dilemma or emotional experience you come up against changes you... It's your job you decide how. That's how character is developed...

You spend so much time wondering who you are, don't you think? You flounder about, searching for your identity, when most of the time it is as plain as the nose on your face... You struggle with questions of purpose and need, and forget that the answers are found mostly inside yourselves...

Sometimes people can't believe in themselves until someone else believes in them first... It's the heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance, it is the dream afraid of waking that never takes the chance, it is the one who won't be taken who cannot seem to give, and the soul afraid of dying that never learns to live...

We all think we're going to be great... And we feel a little bit robbed when our expectations aren't met... But sometimes, our expectations sell us short... Sometimes the expected simply pales in comparison to the unexpected... You gotta wonder why we cling to our expectations because the expected is just what keeps us steady, standing, still... The expected's just the beginning... The unexpected is what changes our lives...

Oh, how I missed you so...

2009-05-27T07:22:00.003+08:00

When someone you love dies, and you're not expecting it, you don't lose them all at once; you lose them in pieces over a long time - the empty house that welcomes you back home and their scent fades from the pillows and even from the clothes in their closet and drawers... Gradually, you accumulate the parts of them that are gone... Just when the day comes, when there's a particular missing part that overwhelms you with the feelings that they're gone forever, there comes another day, and another specifically missing part...

I used to moan... Why do I have to say goodbye ,why does it have to be her? Why does it have to be now? What am I supposed to learn? That death hurts? I know it does ... I know that it's never going to be the same. I can learn that lesson without losing her, God, please don't take her away. There is not too much in this world that means anything to me right now, but without her I am going to stop caring ... My heart is going to break when hers stops ... and I am not going to be able to go on ... I am not going to be able to smile once she is gone..

It's never going to get easier... There is never going to be a 'Death for Dummies' book... There is never going to be an escape plan to pain because no matter how much I try no matter how much I cry my life is never going to go back to the way it used to be... I know that I can't stop myself from hoping that you will one day walk in the front door and smile as if nothing happened. I know that there will be days that it will be hard to get out of bed and look people in the eye and lie when they ask how I am... I know that its going to hurt for the rest of my life and that I will always cry, but I also know that you're in heaven now and your away from all of the pain and everything is better for you now... I just wish I could say the same for me...

But now, when something comes along in my life that's too good to be true, I look inside my heart and know it's because of you... When a smile shows up for no reason at all... Or when a tear of joy just happens to fall, I smile, for I know you are near... Your sweet calming words I still hear... I wish I could hold you in my arms, but I no longer can, you are now an angel, following God's plan... And although it's always extremely sad to lose someone you love, I find comfort in knowing you watch over me….from heaven above. I love you granny... Just somehow wished I said that more often while you were still around...

Say...

2009-05-14T00:33:00.002+08:00

Because sometimes you have something you need to say but you can't because the words won't come out or you get scared or you feel stupid, so if you could write a song and sing it then you could say what you need to say and it would be beautiful and people would listen and you wouldn't make a complete idiot out of yourself, but all of us can't be songwriters so some of us will never be able to say what we're thinking or what we want other people to know that we're thinking so we'll never get the chance to make things right again ever...

End of an eventful semester...

2009-05-05T10:01:00.002+08:00

I learned a lot this year... I learned that things don't always turn out the way you planned, or the way you think they should... And I've learned that there are things that go wrong that don't always get fixed or get put back together the way they were before... I've learned that some broken things stay broken, and I've learned that you can get through bad times and keep looking for better ones, as long as you have people who love you...

We try to live responsible, logical lives, but we can't tell our hearts how to feel... Sometimes our hearts lead us to places we never thought we wanted to go, and sometimes our hearts can be the sweetest, gentlest things we have; sometimes our hearts can make us feel miserable, angry, excited, and confused all at once. but at least my heart is open now...

After what had happened, I'd like to believe that I've grown... I wanna move forward, I'm not interested in going back... Right now, I am filled with what can only be described as relief... Relief that I got to this place, that this is my life...

Life at this very moment...

2009-04-29T16:46:00.001+08:00

It's said that the saddest thing a man will ever face is what might have been... but what if the man who's faced with what was... or what may never be... or what can no longer be... choosing the right path is never easy, it's a decision we make with only our hearts to guide us... but sometimes we find our way to something better... sometimes we fight through the regret and remorse of our mistakes, our malice and our jealousy, and the shame we feel for not being the people we were meant to be... and that's when we find our way to something better... or when something better finds its way to us...

A wise man once said – 'You can have anything in life if you're willing to sacrifice everything else for it.' What he meant is nothing comes without a price... So before you go into battle, you better decide how much you're willing to lose... Too often going after what feels good means letting go of what you know is right... And letting someone in means abandoning the walls you've spent a lifetime building... Of course the toughest sacrifices are the ones we don't see coming... When we don't have time to come up with a strategy to pick sides….or to measure the potential loss... When that happens, when the battle chooses us, and not the other way around, that's when the sacrifice can turn out to be more than we can bear...

Death??

2009-04-27T15:00:00.002+08:00

Death is not the opposite of life, it is a part of life... A part we've not yet explored and thus do not understand and it is only natural to fear what we do not understand... But with the right attitude we can make life beautiful... With this same attitude, can death not be the same?

Secrets??

2009-04-24T18:16:00.002+08:00

The most important things are the hardest things to say... They are the things you get ashamed of, because words diminish them -- words shrink things that seemed limitless when they were in your head to no more than living size when they're brought out... But it's more than that, isn't it? The most important things lie too close to wherever your secret heart is buried, like landmarks to a treasure your enemies would love to steal away... And you may make revelations that cost you dearly only to have people look at you in a funny way, not understanding what you've said at all, or why you thought it was so important that you almost cried while you were saying it... That's the worst I think... When the secret stays locked within not for a want of a teller but for an ear...

P/S I think I get more inspiration to write at the peak of my exam period,hahaha... This is freaking bad... But I can't keep it all in me, otherwise I'd burst? LOL... Until the next post, I'm crossing my fingers, hoping this time I'd just try... I said TRY... to STUDY,hahaha... Chaoz...

Regrets??

2009-04-22T10:04:00.003+08:00

Regret comes in all shapes and sizes... Some are small, like when we do a bad thing for a good reason... Some are bigger like when we let down a friend... Some of us escape the pains of regret by making the right choice... Some of us have little time for regret because we're looking forward to the future... Sometimes we have to fight to come to terms with the past, and sometimes we bury our regret by promising to change our ways... But our biggest regrets are not for the things we did but for the things we didn't do, things we didn't say that could have saved someone we care about... Especially when we can see the dark storm that's headed their way...

P/S And if I don't start studying by now, by tomorrow I'd be filled with even more regret,hahaha...

True enough =)

2009-04-09T08:16:00.017+08:00

As I mature...

2009-04-02T10:59:00.003+08:00

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you... All you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in...LOL...

I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people are just a** h*** .

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it...

I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to others - they are more screwed up than you think...

I've learned that you can keep vomiting long after you think you're finished...

I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, unless we are celebrities...

I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon and all the less important ones just never go away...

Woman... Couldn't agree more on this,hahaha...

2009-01-31T16:55:00.003+08:00

Whatever you give a woman, she's going to multiply...

If you give her sperm, she'll give you a baby...
If you give her a house, she'll give you a home...
If you give her groceries, she'll give you a meal...
If you give her a smile, she'll give you her heart...
She multiplies and enlarges what is given to her.
So......
If you give her crap,you will receive more shit than any one human being can handle...

Love and appreciate all the women in your life! LOL...

Be the Person You Are

2009-01-29T12:24:00.005+08:00

Forget for a minute what the real world looks like, forget what you know, sometimes you need to believe in what isn't exactly there... A daydream of better nights... A storybook fantasy where life is ordered and consistent and tales get awfully exciting before they wrap up nicely for all involved... Who are we to enforce reality? After all, you never know when the good angel of fortune might bring a page from your book to life and throw a kind of miracle your way...

The relationship between time and you is always one of master and slave... List making - it is your anchor, your harbor in the storm of life... Start each morning with your wish for the day, and then move right on in into your daily goal list... Remember to keep them in behavioral terms and be specific... Why? Because a specific list is a happy list... And don't forget it's chaos out there... We conquer that by taking control, setting priorities... Life cannot be based on whim... Those who fail to control whim are destined to be controlled by it...

Remember the story on Hansel and Gretel? And Hansel said to Gretel: Let us drop these bread crumbs so that together we can find our way home because losing our way would be the most cruel of things... And once you lose yourself, you have two choices... Find the person you used to be or lose that person completely... Because sometimes you have to step outside of the person you've been and remember the person you were meant to be... The person you wanted to be... The person you are...

Life is hard at the moment...

2009-01-20T18:26:00.003+08:00

There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroads... Afraid... Confused... Without a roadmap... The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days... Of course, when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back... But once in a while people push on to something better... Something found just beyond the pain of going it alone... And just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in... Or to give someone a second chance... Something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream... Because it's only when you're tested, that you truly discover who you are... And it's only when you're tested, that you discover who you can be... The person you want to be does exist... Somewhere on the other side of hard work and faith and belief ... and beyond the heartache and fear of what lies ahead...

Just because the road ahead is long, is no reason to slow down... Just because there is much work to be done, is no reason to get discouraged... It is a reason to get started, to grow, to find new ways, to reach within yourself and discover strength, commitment, determination, discipline... The road ahead is long, and difficult, and filled with opportunity at every turn... Start what needs starting... Finish what needs finishing... Get on the road... Stay on the road... Get on with the work... Right now you're at the beginning of the journey... What a great place to be! Just imagine all the things you'll learn, all the people you'll meet, all the experiences you'll have... Be thankful that the road is long and challenging, because that is where you'll find the best that life has to offer...

He who hesitates is lost... We can't pretend we haven't been told... We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day... Still, sometimes we have to see for ourselves... We have to make our own mistakes... We have to learn our own lessons... We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore, until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin meant... That knowing is better than wondering... That waking is better than sleeping... And that even the biggest failure, even the worst, most intractable mistake beats the hell out of never trying...

Nevertheless, you will look back on the times you laughed and you will cry, you look back on the times you cried, and you will laugh... You will always remember close friends, and you will always keep memories of them in your heart... Life is hard. it's tough, and it's unfair, but everyone gets over the hurt and the pain, eventually, and you always end up with a smile on your face, if you give it a chance...

Adiós 2008... Hola 2009...

2008-12-30T18:00:00.006+08:00

"New Year's Day: Now is the accepted time to make your regular annual good resolutions... Next week you can begin paving hell with them as usual." - Mark Twain-

Who gets to determine when the old ends and the new begins? It's not on the calendar, it's not a birthday, it's not a new year, it's an event --big or small, something that changes us, ideally it gives us hope, a new way of living and looking at the world, letting go of old habits, old memories... What's important is that we never stop believing we can have a new beginning, but it's also important to remember amid all the crap are a few things really worth holding on to...

If you're feeling frightened about what comes next, don't be... Embrace the uncertainty... Allow it to lead you places... Be brave as it challenges you to exercise both your heart and your mind as you create your own path towards happiness, don't waste time with regret... Spin wildly into your next action... Enjoy the present, each moment, as it comes; because you'll never get another one quite like it... And if you should ever look up and find yourself lost, simply take a breath and start over... Retrace your steps and go back to the purest place in your heart... where your hope lives. You'll find your way again...

So, drop the last year into the silent limbo of the past... Let it go, for it was imperfect, and thank God that it can go... Happy New Year, everybody!!!

2008-12-19T13:53:00.003+08:00

"Christmas is not a date. It is a state of mind." - Mary Ellen Chase

Ahhh... In less than a week, my favourite day would be arriving... As ironic as it sounds, although Christmas isn't really a tradition in my family, I just loved it... Can't really tell you why... Maybe it's just the concept of Christmas that entralls me...Who knows...LOL... To be frank, until one feels the spirit of Christmas, there is no Christmas... All else is outward display-so much tinsel and decorations... For it isn't the holly, it isn't the snow... It isn't the tree not the firelight's glow... It's the warmth that comes to the hearts of men when the Christmas spirit returns again...

I sometimes think people expect too much of Christmas Day... We try to crowd into it the long arrears of kindliness and humanity of the whole year... Well, here's what I have to say... Don't expect too much of Christmas Day... You can't crowd into it any arrears of unselfishness and kindliness that may have accrued during the past twelve months... As for me, I like to take my Christmas a little at a time, all through the year. And thus I drift along into the holidays-let them overtake me unexpectedly-waking up some fine morning and suddenly saying to myself: "Why this is Christmas Day." Hence, as long as we know in our hearts what Christmas ought to be, Christmas is.

Well, enough said... I've shopping to do... So, I will leave you with this... "I will honour Christmas in my heart, and try to keep it all the year." - Charles Dickens (A Christmas Carol) Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!! Cheers!!!

Optician? Optometrist? Opthalmologist?

2008-11-28T16:25:00.005+08:00

3 different terms, 3 different profession but all related to the eyes... How many of you can actually tell the difference? 3 years into the course, people still confuse me with an optician or an opthalmologist... The feeling's indifferent but somehow hearing that from some close friends really set me off... I don't know why... It's just a term, but hey, I don't study 4 bloody years on that 2 lil eyes we have just to be compared to another profession... Yet, it's happening now, I thought the public should be more aware now, but NO... It's still the same, no wonder we're still so far behind...sigh... Right now, I'm gonna stop explaining, whatever happens shall stay that way... After all, whoever cares what I feel, as long as I do my stuff... This is freaking bad...Really really bad...

Finding That Pony

2008-11-17T13:03:00.004+08:00

There is a very old joke about two young brothers... One was an optimist and one was a pessimist... As a test, they were each told they had received a gift and then were put in a room with a huge pile of horse droppings... The pessimist was, understandably, disgusted... When the researchers went into the room with the optimistic child, they found him happily digging in the horse dung, exclaiming, “I know there’s a pony in here somewhere!”

A poor joke perhaps, but an excellent life lesson... How our lives unfold is largely dependant on how we approach challenges that present themselves...

Adversity is a fact of life... How you view adversity dictates your reality... If you are always looking at the down side of life, that is what you are going to get... If each challenge throws you for a loop, it is going to be difficult for you to get anywhere... Understandably, some challenges are bigger than others and take more work to deal with... However, you can overcome them if you begin to see them as challenges to be worked out rather than walls that are insurmountable...

We all know what it is like to be around a person who is always in crisis, who is always in a mess... This type of person may thrive on chaos, but they are also negative people who only see the negatives around them... They can and will suck up your energy and just want more... Pessimism is like a virus, it jumps from person to person, through direct contact... The more you are around it, the worse you feel...

It really is just as easy to be optimistic... In fact, it may be easier to see the good in life and the challenges in adversity... Being happy takes less energy...

Even if you believe in Reincarnation, this is the only life you are going to get this time around... Why not be the type of person who looks for the pony?

Does this path have heart?

2008-11-13T11:46:00.005+08:00

Each path is only one of a million paths... Therefore, you must always keep in mind that a path is only a path... If you feel that you must now follow it, you need not stay with it under any circumstances...

Any path is only a path... There is no affront to oneself or others in dropping it if that is what your heart tells you to do... But your decision to keep on the path must be free of fear or ambition...

All paths are the same... They lead nowhere... There are paths going through the brush or into the brush or under the brush... Does this path have a heart is the only question... If it does, then the path is good... If doesn't, it is of no use...

Gotta Be Somebody =)

2008-11-01T12:37:00.006+08:00

This time, I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life, the one we all dream of
But dreams just aren't enough
So I'll be waiting for the real thing, I'll know it by the feeling
The moment when we're meeting, will play out like a scene
Straight off the silver screen
So I'll be holding my own breath, right up 'til the end
Until that moment when, I find the one that I'll spend forever with...

Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me like that
Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there...

Tonight, out on the street, out in the moonlight
And dammit this feels too right, it's just like deja vu
Me standing here with you
So I'll be holding my own breath, could this be the end
Is it that moment when, I find the one that I'll spend forever with...

Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me like that
Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there...

You can't give up, when your looking for
A diamond in the rough cuz you never know
When it shows up, make sure you're holding on
Cause it could be the one, the one you're waiting on
Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me, oh...

Nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there
Nobody wants to be the last one there
(what your looking for)
Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
(you never know)
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
(start holding on)
There's gotta be somebody for me out there...

A Beautiful Mind

2008-10-29T14:07:00.002+08:00

"I've made the most important discovery of my life. It's only in the mysterious equation of love that any logical reasons can be found. I'm only here tonight because of you. You're the only reason I am...you are all my reasons. "

The Best Day of My Life

2008-10-26T10:57:00.003+08:00

Today, when I awoke, I suddenly realized that this is the best day of my life, ever! There were times when I wondered if I would make it to today; but I did! And because I did I'm going to celebrate! Today, I'm going to celebrate what an unbelievable life I have had so far: the accomplishments, the many blessings, and, yes, even the hardships because they have served to make me stronger...

I will go through this day with my head held high, and a happy heart... I will marvel at God's seemingly simple gifts: the morning dew, the sun, the clouds, the trees, the flowers, the birds...
Today, none of these miraculous creations will escape my notice. Today, I will share my excitement for life with other people... I'll make someone smile... I'll go out of my way to perform an unexpected act of kindness for someone I don't even know... Today, I'll give a sincere compliment to someone who seems down... I'll tell a child how special he is, and I'll tell someone I love just how deeply I care for her and how much she means to me...

Today is the day I quit worrying about what I don't have and start being grateful for all the wonderful things God has already given me... And tonight, before I go to bed, I'll go outside and Praise my eyes to the heavens... I will stand in awe at the beauty of the stars and the moon, and I will praise God for these magnificent treasures...

As the day ends and I lay my head down on my pillow, I will thank the Almighty for the best day of my life... And I will sleep the sleep of a contented child, excited with expectation because I know tomorrow is going to be the best day of my life, ever!

Life could have been better...

2008-10-12T17:25:00.004+08:00

The most unfair thing about life is the way it ends... I mean, life is tough...

It takes up a lot of your time... What do you get at the end of it?

Death...

What's that, a bonus?

I think the Life could have been better if the life cycle is all backwards...

You should die first, get it out of the way... Then you live in an old age home... You get kicked out when you're too young, you get a gold watch and you go to work...

You work forty years until you're young enough to enjoy your retirement...
You do alcohol, you party, you get ready for high school...

You go to grade school, you become a kid, you play, you have no responsibilities...

You become a little baby, you go back into the womb, spend your last nine months floating and you finish off as an orgasm...LOL...

Something to think about...

2008-10-04T11:21:00.003+08:00

We have bigger houses and smaller families; more conveniences, but less time; we have more degrees, but less sense; more knowledge, but less judgment; more experts, but more problems; more medicine, but less wellness...

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry too quickly, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too seldom, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom...

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values... We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often... We've learned how to make a living, but not a life; we've added years to life, not life to years...

We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet the new neighbor... We've conquered outer space, but not inner space; we've done larger things, but not better things; we've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul; we've split the atom, but not our prejudice; we write more, but learn less; we plan more, but accomplish less...

We've learned to rush, but not to wait; we have higher incomes, but lower morals; we have more food, but less appeasement; we build more computers to hold more information to produce more copies than ever, but have less communication; we've become long on quantity, but short on quality.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion; tall men, and short character; steep profits, and shallow relationships... These are the times of world peace, but domestic warfare; more leisure, but less fun; more kinds of food, but less nutrition...

These are days of two incomes, but more divorce; of fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throw away morality, one-night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer to quiet, to kill...

It is a time when there is much in the show window and nothing in the stockroom; a time when technology can bring this post to you, and a time when you can choose either to make a difference, or just turn the page...

Life Lesson

2008-09-29T13:23:00.001+08:00

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there...to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure out who you are or who you want to become...

You never know who these people may be but, when you lock eyes with them, you know that every moment they will affect your life in some profound way... And sometimes things happen to you at the time that may seem horrible, painful and unfair but, upon reflection, you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your potential, strength, will power or heart...

Everything happens for a reason... Nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck... Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul...

Without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere... Safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless... The people you meet affect your life... The successes and downfalls that you experience can create who you are, and the bad experiences can be learned from... In fact, they are probably the most poignant and important ones...

If someone hurts you, betrays you or breaks your heart, forgive them because they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart to... If someone loves you, love them back, unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because they are teaching you to love and open your heart and eyes to little things...

Make every day count... Appreciate every moment and take from it everything that you possibly can, for you may never be able to experience it again... Talk to people you have never talked to before, and actually listen... Let yourself fall in love, break free and set your sights high...

So, hold your head up because you have every right to... Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you...

Punctuation

2008-09-26T09:53:00.002+08:00

All the years of English lessons, it never really hit to me how punctuation actually plays huge role in getting a statement out loud...lol... Just think about it...

"A woman without her man is nothing"

1. A woman, without her man, is nothing.

2. A woman: without her, man is nothing.

So, which one is your pick? XD

Tagged by Si Jahat, Ngan Chen Li...

2008-09-25T11:03:00.004+08:00

Well, frankly... I'd prefer if someone tagged me on something more important.. like humanity??hahaha... But since it's from a dear ol' friend, I'll do it la, for old times sake,hahaha... P/S Ngan or whoever's reading, please... NO MORE TAGS... =P

1. What is your dream when you were a small kid?
Erm, marry prince charming,live in a big beautiful palace and live happily ever after... (watched too many Disney movies la wei) But then, one day,poof... Reality hit me,hahaha... But whoever said dreams can't come true?? Only need a bit of modification la... Marry someone who loves me, live together with the whole family regardless of where la (whoever cares if it's a hut or palace when I've got all the love in the world, right?? lol) and live the rest of my life to the max!!!

2. What is the happiest thing in your whole life?
No specific thing I suppose, just the lil moments in life... Even the smallest thing would make me happy (gosh, i'm that easy to please),lol...

3. What do you wish to have right now?
Money... So that I can now go to New Delhi to help those poor people... Anybody up for sponsor?? ;P

4. When is the last time you horse laughed?
Every single time when I'm high on CAFFEIN... The things I say and do...well, it's even worse than getting drunk,lol...

5. What did you realize recently?
I'm losing faith in humanity... I don't know why... It sucks...

6. Which bad habit in you that is the most unacceptable?
Hmmm... my mood swings?? That's where the blog plays an important role, to divert all my anger into it instead of pinning onto others like I used to do =(

7. When you are unhappy, what will you do?
Eat and eat and eat and eat.... So that explains my weight problem la,hahahaha...

8. What are you afraid of losing?
My identitiy...

9. Within 5 years, which target is the most realistic one?
Hopefully, graduate in 2 years time, then TRAVEL!!! hahaha....

10. When you met someone that you like, will you profess or hide your feelings?
Neither... Don't ask me why...

11. List out 3 kind of people you hate the most.
Smokers, rude people and backstabbers (trust me, i've encountered all 3 in just 2 semesters in uni...dang... And I thought uni people are suppose to be well, at least bearable)

12. Define loneliness.
As quoted by a friend - It's all in the mind...

13. Are you satisfied with your life now?
Yesh...

14. When is the most recent time you felt touched?
Can't remember... Seriously... I have super steeled heart,lol...

15. Where is the most beautiful place that you’ve visited?
Haven't done much travelling... Get that to me in a few years time la,lol...

16. A song that is playing in your mind recently?
Think of Me by Phantom of the Opera...

17. If you have a wish to come true, what is it?
To have more wishes... Hey, the world needs alot of repairing, what makes you think 1 wish is enough?? hahaha...

18. Do you have anything to be worried or scared recently?
Life after graduation...

19. If the world is going to end, what will you do?
Spend time with my loved ones...

20. What is in ur mind now ???
Grrrrr... Why la tag me!!!??? Hmmmmph...

Commit to be HAPPY

2008-09-21T16:52:00.004+08:00

Today, I reaffirmed a personal commitment to be happy, in spite of what life hands me... I've decided that there are too many things over which I have no control, and the only thing I can do is to stop allowing them to make dents in my spirit...

Happiness is not something that others can take from me... It's something that I would have to throw away on my own... There will be times when things don't turn out the way I want them to... My best friend might just turn her back to me just because she no longer have time for 'us single people'... Or even me being punished for something I didn't do... Nasty backstabbers surrounding the people I care about, but can't do anything to save them... These are things that can happen to the most loving, compassionate, careful and reasonable person... But after the initial pain and shock, the decision whether or not to let myself languish in despair is entirely up to me... I can allow misfortune to form the bulk of my life, or I can choose to leave what's past in the past, and move on...

One's friendly and caring behavior towards others should not be motivated by the thought of equally kind and affectionate responses... You understand yourself best, and regardless of how reasonably and responsibly you live your life, there will be people who won't see your point of view or share your motivations...

People have the right to act in any way they see fit... I don't have the right to judge whether their behavior is acceptable or not... They have to bear the responsibility for their own actions, and so do I... By feeling sorry for myself, I am simply continuing the work for them, long after they've dealt their blow... I've decided that, as far as possible, I will not allow these people to disturb my mind...

There are many things for which I can be grateful... There are yet unexplored experiences in which I can find enrichment and meaning... There are yet others who will like me for who I am, and in spite of who I am... If I spend my time being resentful and miserable, I'm denying myself the satisfaction of enjoying what this life has to offer...

There are enough unhappy people in this world who punish themselves and others constantly in a bid to find redress and compensation... But there is no satisfaction in retaliation and revenge... It's a waste of time and spirit.

Symptoms of Inner Peace

2008-08-31T01:18:00.004+08:00

- A tendency to think and act spontaneously rather than from fears based on past experiences...
- An unmistaken ability to enjoy each moment...
- A loss of interest in judging self...
- A loss of interest in judging others...
- A loss in interest in conflict...
- A loss of interest in interpreting the action of others...
- A loss of the ability to worry... (This symptom is very serious)
- Frequent overwhelming episodes of appreciation...
- Contented feelings of connectedness with others and nature...
- Frequent attacks of smiling through the eyes of the Heart...
- Increasing susceptibility to love extended by others and the uncomfortable urge to extend it...
- An increasing tendency to let things happen rather than make them happen...

If you have all or most of the above symptoms, please be advised that your condition of PEACE may be so far advanced as to not be treatable. And boy, I do wish I had all these symptoms now... I do really need this =P

Attitude

2008-08-19T20:18:00.003+08:00

The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life...

Attitude, to me is more important than facts... It is more important than the past, than education, than money, than circumstances, than failures, than successes, than what other people think or say or do...

It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill... It will make or break a company... a home...

The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day...

We cannot change our past... We cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way... We cannot change the inevitable...

The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude...

I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% how I react to it...

And so it is with you... we are in charge of our attitudes.

It's been ages, yup... BLog going back to it's original state - abandoned... lol... Busy with uni, busy dealing with bitchy people around me, people starting to show the ugly animal side in them, man... Am I ever glad I'm still alive... Nevertheless, that's LIFE... ATTITUDE is all about managing... I should be getting an A for this right now, hahaha... I Exam's just around the corner, so... Until then, chaoz...

The lil' animal deep within...

2008-06-18T11:25:00.000+08:00

There’s a little animal in all of us and maybe that’s something to celebrate... Our animal instinct is what makes us seek comfort, warmth, a pack to run with... We may feel caged, we may feel trapped, but still as humans we can find ways to feel free... We are each other’s keepers, we are the guardians of our own humanity and even though there’s a beast inside all of us, what sets us apart from the animals is that we can think, feel, dream and love... And against all odds, against all instinct, we evolve...

We like to think that we are rational beings; humane, conscientious, civilized, thoughtful... But when things fall apart, even just a little, it becomes clear we are not better than animals... We have opposable thumbs, we think, we walk erect, we speak, we dream, but deep down we are still routing around in the primordial ooze; biting, clawing, scratching out an existence in the cold, dark world like the rest of the tree-toads and sloths...

A Good Person

2008-06-06T00:12:00.001+08:00

What really constitutes a good person? This is one of the questions I have in my life that I long to find the answer for...

Does being an upright citizen equate to being a good person?

Does going to church regularly and paying your friends compliments that they are due make you virtuous and moral?

Is it enough to do good things for other people to make you an ethical and just human being?

With all the norms that the society we live in sets for being good, sometimes, it's just too easy to be bad... Whether that takes the form of gossiping about your friends, cheating on a test, changing lanes too fast or merely having malicious thoughts of others, I've done all sort of things that I can never be proud of, nor justify...

Sometimes, it's just way too easy to be bad... The idea of being good is occasionally easier said than done... Doing something I already regard as greatly noble may not be good enough to the person sitting next to me...

Let's admit it, we can never please everyone, no matter how we try...

I've just recently stopped apologizing for my existence and started to accept and love myself... I have realized that the key to becoming a truly good person is in also accepting the parts of my personality that I am not very proud of...

I have stopped resisting my nature, instead, tried to work my way around it... I have come to admit that I am not perfect and I do succumb to temptation sometimes... What matters is the fact that everyday, I try to be a better person than I was yesterday... If I fail, I try again...

Somebody once said, "I may not be a nice person, but I am a good human being".

Being good is like beauty... It is a biased, prejudiced, over-rated and subjective issue... I've learned not to put too much pressure on myself with all the standards that our society has... Instead, I try to simplify them by struggling not to step on anyone's shoes... Then maybe... just maybe, I can be a good person in the process.

Here's to WOMEN!!!

2008-05-20T11:45:00.002+08:00

WOMEN are WOW .. just face it!!

They smile when they want to scream...

They sing when they want to cry...

They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous...

They fight for what they believe in...

They stand up for injustice...

They don't take "no" for an answer when they believe there is a better solution...

They go without new shoes so their children can have them...

They go to the doctor with a frightened friend...

They love unconditionally...

They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards...

They are happy when they hear about a birth or a new marriage...

Their hearts break when a friend dies...

They have sorrow at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left...

They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart...

Women come in all sizes, in all colors and shapes...

They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you to show how much they care about you...

The heart of a woman is what makes the world spin! Women do more than just give birth... They bring joy and hope... They give compassion and ideals... They give moral support to their family and friends... Women have a lot to say and a lot to give...

KUDOS to all the women out there!!! We rule!!! Yeah!!!

The Greatest Profession

2008-05-08T23:58:00.002+08:00

The working world is all about qualifications and experience... To gain employment, it is necessary to meet the required educational level, or at least have sufficient experience... There is virtually no way an employer would hire someone who is inexperienced and uneducated for a high profile position...

Everywhere else in life, the two elements are essential qualities... We entrust our education to our teachers, our spiritual development to our religious leaders, our lives to our doctors, only if we know and believe that they are up to the job... And how do we know? Only based on their paper qualifications and/or relevant experience.

Now imagine an advertisement that goes:

No qualifications necessary.
No experience needed.
Working hours totally flexible.
Rewards - vast and unlimited.

What job could that be? It is something happening or should be happening in our every day lives... The job of loving our fellow human beings, of caring for every single one of them, of sharing with every single one of them... The job of touching the lives of every single person we meet, whether in a large way or just a small way, regardless of whether they speak the same language or possess the same skin colour...

It is the world's most important job, one where every one of us is responsible for, yet most of us are so caught up with other things we forget about it... It is a great, beautiful and noble profession, yet it is something every single human being is capable of... You don't need years of working experience, nor do you need to go to school or get stackfulls of paper qualifications... You just need a willing heart...

Within every single one of us lies the power... The power to champion humanity and the human spirit... It is only up to us to use it...

All time favourite past time - TALKING

2008-05-04T11:21:00.000+08:00

"It isn't what they say about you, it's what they whisper."
Errol Flynn

People like to talk... Correct that, some people love to talk... They talk about this and talk about that... They talk and talk and talk some more... In fact, these chatty sorts talk about virtually anything and everything under the sun... Unfortunately, sometimes their favorite subject is talking about other people...

Like it or not, sooner or later you will become the topic of somebody's conversation... Some will say you're not good enough... Others will say you're not smart enough... There will even be some who say you're never going to amount to much of anything at all... But so what? Regardless of what they say, they have no say... No say whatsoever...

"We cannot control the evil tongues of others; but a good life enables us to disregard them."
Cato the Elder

The only person who has any input in what you say, think or do is you; you and you alone... It's not your friends, family or acquaintances.... Oh sure, they can toss in their two cents - but you don't have to listen, especially if their comments tear you down or sell you short...

As far as your adversaries, competitors or rivals are concerned, you need to tune them out... Completely... These individuals are constantly looking for ways to undermine everything you do... Since they're going to spout off whether you like it or not, you might as welllet them... Their hot air doesn't mean a thing unless you allow their words to get under your skin...

So don't let them...

Look, they're only words; empty, meaningless, insignificant words spoken by people who don't know the quality of your character or the depth of your heart...

"A thousand words will not leave so deep an impression as one deed."
Henrik Ibsen

When it comes to living your life, you get to have the first word, the last word and everything in between... No one and that means absolutely nobody can bring you down unless you give them that opportunity... Make sure you don't give anyone the final say in how your life is lived...

Possessing the last word on how your life's story unfolds is one of the most enriching aspects of life itself... Maybe even the most rewarding... Think about it; you have the opportunity to shape, fashion and orchestrate each and every facet of your life...

The Bottom Line: It's your life, so why not live it your way?