The Wound That Never Got Healed

I still think of you day in and day out... I still wake up at night with a cold sweat on my skin from a dream about you... I still get lost in my thoughts of you.. I still look around when someone calls your name... I still feel the tears in my eyes when mail comes for you... I still turn down all the lights at night and cry for you.. Only for you..

If only I could hear your voice one more time... Guiding me through... My shining light.. Maybe that would stop my tears... Maybe if I could just see your face.. My heart would stop its grieving.. Maybe if I could just let you know I love you..one more time... That would keep my mind at ease.. Maybe if.. I had told you one more time how much you mean to me.. How much I look up to you.. How scared I am going to be without you... You would haven't had left... maybe if...

So you're gone and I know you had me promise I wouldn't cry, and I'm sorry... I know you're never coming back and I may never see you again, and well, it hurts... It hurts beyond imagination... And I thought I could handle it, but I can't. I want to reach out and touch you -- kiss you -- but you're not there... I would have given anything to tell you, 'I love you' one last time... But it wouldn't have changed anything... I despise fate.

Self Reflect

It was as if the face in the mirror belonged to a stranger, while the person who ought to appear remained in hiding.

Sometimes it seems like we’re all living in some kind of prison. And the crime is how much we hate ourselves. It’s good to get really dressed up once in a while and admit the truth: that when you really look closely, people are so strange and so complicated that they’re actually…beautiful. Possibly even me.

But then I thought maybe it’s not that I’m more beautiful today. Maybe I was just as beautiful yesterday, only I lacked the self-esteem to recognize it.

The Battle of Life

A wise man once said – 'You can have anything in life if you're willing to sacrifice everything else for it.' What he meant is nothing comes without a price... So before you go into battle, you better decide how much you're willing to lose... Too often going after what feels good means letting go of what you know is right... And letting someone in means abandoning the walls you've spent a lifetime building... Of course the toughest sacrifices are the ones we don't see coming... When we don't have time to come up with a strategy to pick sides….or to measure the potential loss... When that happens, when the battle chooses us, and not the other way around, that's when the sacrifice can turn out to be more than we can bear...

Depressed

There is a voice, that has no name... It comes with evening or behind the rain... I have no time now, to stop and explain, I just keep movin, cause it helps to ease the pain... The night has music that calls to me, across the canyons of an endless sea... I seek the shadows, of yesterday... Today can't hold me, so I must be on my way... Speak to me softly but tell me no lies... I see tomorrow shining in your eyes... I have no time now to stop and explain, I just keep movin cause it helps to ease the pain...

Am I Truly Ready To Let That Dream Go Now?

When we embrace what lies within, our potential knows no limit... The future is filled with promise.... The present, rife with expectation... But when we deny our instinct, and struggle against our deepest urges... Uncertainty begins... Where does this path lead? When will the changes end? Is this transformation a gift... or a curse? And for those that fear what lies ahead... The most important question of all... Can we ever change what we really are?

The rest of your life is a long time and whether you know it or not it's being shaped right now... You can choose to blame your circumstances on fate or bad luck or bad choices or you can fight back... Things aren't always going to be fair in the real world, that's just the way it is but for the most part you get what you give... Someone once asked me this - What's worse not getting everything you wished for or getting it but finding out it's not enough? The rest of your life is being shaped right now with the dreams you chase, the choices you make and the person you decide to be... The rest of your life is a long time and the rest of your life starts right now...

It's said that the saddest thing a man will ever face is what might have been... but what if the man who's faced with what was... or what may never be... or what can no longer be... choosing the right path is never easy, it's a decision we make with only our hearts to guide us... but sometimes we find our way to something better... sometimes we fight through the regret and remorse of our mistakes, our malice and our jealousy, and the shame we feel for not being the people we were meant to be... and that's when we find our way to something better... or when something better finds its way to us.