The Wound That Never Got Healed

I still think of you day in and day out... I still wake up at night with a cold sweat on my skin from a dream about you... I still get lost in my thoughts of you.. I still look around when someone calls your name... I still feel the tears in my eyes when mail comes for you... I still turn down all the lights at night and cry for you.. Only for you..

If only I could hear your voice one more time... Guiding me through... My shining light.. Maybe that would stop my tears... Maybe if I could just see your face.. My heart would stop its grieving.. Maybe if I could just let you know I love you..one more time... That would keep my mind at ease.. Maybe if.. I had told you one more time how much you mean to me.. How much I look up to you.. How scared I am going to be without you... You would haven't had left... maybe if...

So you're gone and I know you had me promise I wouldn't cry, and I'm sorry... I know you're never coming back and I may never see you again, and well, it hurts... It hurts beyond imagination... And I thought I could handle it, but I can't. I want to reach out and touch you -- kiss you -- but you're not there... I would have given anything to tell you, 'I love you' one last time... But it wouldn't have changed anything... I despise fate.

Someone whom I used to call Fatty

To the outside world we all grow old... But not to brothers and sisters... We know each other as we always were... We know each other's hearts... We share private family jokes... We remember family feuds and secrets, family griefs and joys... We live outside the touch of time...

To my one and only brother: A decision is made with the brain... A commitment is made with the heart... Therefore, a commitment is much deeper and more binding than a decision... You have two hands... One to help yourself, the second to help others... So, just promise me that you'll work your ass off to become the best damn doctor the world has ever seen...

P/S At the same time, please remember to pause for a moment to smell the flowers and enjoy every moment there in KK alright,my dear geeky brother... All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy,LOL... I'll miss the times we squander over the the smallest matter or having to share my room with you...haha... All the best to you =)